Tonight, I will do my first ever solo dance performance. I choreographed the routine myself. I am fucking super nervous. Adrenaline dump all day, every time I think about it. I just want it to be really good.
The closest way I can describe the feeling is that it is exactly the same as right before I redpointed my first 5.13 rock climb. (That's not world-class hard, but it's playing with the big kids. Mine was ~110 feet of rock that was on average, about 45 degrees overhanging.)
My pulse is not particularly elevated, but my hand are literally shaky with adrenaline. I am so excited, and nervous, and dissociatively calm. I need to be absolutely focused, and utterly unentitled, such that I give it everything I have.
Gonna leave it all on the floor.
Lots more on this later.